When love has let you
down, especially when it lets you down hard, there seems to be this prominent
moment in time that drags on and on and on. It's not pain, really. It's not
even sadness. It's just this sense of solitude that has taken on the role of your
personal protection; a body guard for your heart and soul, if you will. The
funny thing about it is you are well aware of it throughout your day, with
every interaction you have with another person, especially in meeting new
people. And you grow to rely on it. With this guard comes independence, inner
strength and focus. All of a sudden, you're feeling better about yourself than
you can ever remember feeling...ever. You're confident in your own abilities
and proud of your accomplishments, because you are all you have...you and this
Knight of Solidarity who walks beside you day in and day out.
You'll envelope
yourself in this positive selfishness. You will grow and your world will expand
with you. And before you know it, you will have found your true self, the
person you were meant to be...and want to be; a stronger, better, more
prominent you.
When you have taken
this time to get to know yourself; the real, uninterrupted, non-clouded version
of yourself, you will find that the right people gravitate to you. You don't
have to go searching for someone who might, possibly, fit into this puzzle-piece
riddle of standards you set. The right people will find you, on accident in the
most unexpected places at the most unexpected times. And because you have found
your true personality, there will be no confusion in the bonds you build with
these surprise acquaintances. And if you remain true to yourself, the right one
will come along; the one who evokes all the right emotions and treats you with
all the respect in the world.
For the longest time,
I thought that beginning a new relationship would force me to compromise all
that I had gained in this past year. I thought I would have to trade in my
freedom for a pair of chains, and set aside my independence in order to let
someone in. I thought that my guard would be too strong to allow anyone to ever
help me or hold me. Until now…now I see that you don't have to tear your soul
in half in order to share it. The right person will come along who knows just
how to handle your heart, even the tough, protected parts. He won't fight with
your wall of confidence; instead he will rebuild it where it weakens. He won't
fear your independence, but encourage it. He will share in the belief in your
abilities and take it upon himself to make sure that belief never falters. He
will make you better. He will accentuate all of those strengths you have grown
into, not place them in shadows. He will love you in all the right ways and he
will make you even stronger.
I am so lucky
to have found someone who lifts me so high. This relationship is still new and
exciting...and young. But it’s strong and I believe in it. I am infatuated with
his presence, I feel safe in his arms and he is such a good, caring man.
...I couldn't have imagined a better person to
fall for on accident, when I was least expecting it.
